If I am reborn and come to meet you,
do you think this shredded-up heart of mine will heal?
Tatsumi Kazehaya
20 years
he/they/she
gay, nonbinary
Tatsumi is a well-spoken individual who, typically has a very calming presence. He was active as a solo unit prior to his accident and is currently on a permanent hiatus thanks to it.
He may jump into action to save a situation that does not even need saving, and end up making up problems that do not even exist. Everything he does is out of pure and loving intention, however, his ways of displaying this can often cause more harm than good. He will do anything he can to help people, regardless if he is needed or not.
It would be great if I could go back to that day
Kit / Bug / Mer
21 years (nov.14 02)
they/it
I also run @OCCULTISH_NIGHT and @himeru_toujouI just hope we can get along!
Rules
NSFW themes and jokes are okay and prominent, but nothing explicit unless in dms (18+ mod and muse ONLY. Please discuss with me first.)
Incest/Pedophilia shippers do not interact [sprays you with water]
I cannot do roleplay threads in any way outside of direct replies. I can't follow them otherwise!
Multiship OK. No ships with first years.
Unless we are already close, I might block OGmeru RP accounts. You're wonderful, my brain just has issues.
Notes
All art used is either official or belongs to mod unless stated otherwise
DMs are open (both for in character and out of character talk)
Sometimes, Tatsumi's personal writing will be tweeted. These are marked with ...🖋
Mod is not religious, so Tatsumi may not make as many references as he does in canon.
May have to take breaks due to mental health or personal life. Please just be patient!
Content Warnings
Delusions (typically religious in nature)
Painful transformations
Abnormal blood
Occasional obsessive behavior
Self-harm
Past sexual trauma
Body horror (Especially eye horror)
Death
Content is not tagged when in threads.
If you are uncomfortable with any of these topics, you may let mod know. You are free to unfollow, softblock, or hardblock at any time. You don't need to explain yourself if you do. I understand these topics can be triggering.
Alternate Universe Information
Reimei Revolution held an incredibly drastic effect on Tatsumi Kazehaya; His life ended up being taken from the accident. He died afterward in the hospital.After death, Tatsumi could not enter Heaven peacefully due to the troubles he had caused by the revolution. Though his intentions were pure, his execution resulted in the pain of others.Before he can ascend to a serene afterlife, Tatsumi must make up for his actions from when he was alive. Though officially he is recognized as a fallen angel ー seeing as he was discarded from Heaven ー Tatsumi attempts to take the role of a guardian angel for lost souls wandering Earth.He does his best to pass as a human on the surface; his wings easy to hide. Any major wound caused by the incident has healed upon his rebirth.Roughly a year has passed since the accident (with his exact death being a few months ago), everyone believing Tatsumi vanished off the face of the Earth only to suddenly appear once more. He can no longer age when stuck as an angel, meaning he is permanently left to be the age at which he died.He is not part of ALKALOID in this AU, nor does he go to Reimei Academy anymore. Instead of living in ES, he lives in his own little apartment not too far away.
Extended Angel Information
His actual wings can disappear, allowing him to fit in easier with humans.
When his wings pop out, extra sets of eyes also open on his left arm, thighs and neck, resembling more biblically accurate angels.
These eyes, in general, open up in the place of any scars.
The process of spreading his wings is rather painful and at times can happen at random if Tatsumi is in poor health, such as when he has gone long times without food or water or is stuck in a bad place mentally.
His blood is black. The reason why is unbeknownst to him, but seeing it often makes him sick.
He is able to regrow body parts should he lose any. However, this process may take a few days.
How did you find this page? Well, I do not fully comprehend the concept of "kinning" myself, but Mayoi-san seems to enjoy it. I thought it would be fun to join in♪
The Kinned List
Lemres , Monika , CinnamorollPerhaps more will be added in the future? Fufu ♪
*Boyfriend zone *
Mayoi (12.15.20)
HiMERU (1.22.21)
Rinne (1.24.21)
General Tatsumi Headcanons
While he doesn't usually go nonverbal, he has difficulty vocalizing his troubles. He often writes his thoughts down if trying to vent.
He's much more of a dog person. When it comes to cats, he has a bit of an embarrassing fear of them. (He's working on it, though!)
Though he prefers eating healthily, he also has a deep love for junk food.
His ears are pierced! He has multiple piercings in each ear. He doesn't always wear piercings though; very rarely wearing multiple per ear.
He has a small tattoo on his back. The design is angel wings. He has also gotten a large sleeve across his right arm, though he has no memory of getting it.
Cars are a special interest of his. He also loves flowers. He currently works at a flower shop to make ends meet.
His vision is somewhat impaired and wears glasses when needed, usually if home alone.
He's a bit of a hopeless romantic.
His dream for the future is to be a househusband.
He's developed a nervous tic of scratching at his neck when anxious.
Mental Health
I am autistic and have quiet BPD, so I write Tatsumi in a similar way. I also write him with STPD, depression, and anxiety.He's generally good at keeping himself composed. It's rare to get him to break if in front of another person.
I am either very quick with replies or far too slow... I lose track of threads easily. If you want me to reply to something, just like part of the thread or DM me and I'll get to it!!I am very mentally ill and I like to project things onto characters... Sorry Tatsumi </3
I try not to go too far with whumping.Please just be patient with me!! Thank you very much!!!
Extended Mental Health Info
Tatsumi, in this AU, is not as (seemingly) stable mentally as he is in canon. He is just a few months younger and also has to cope with vivid memories of his own death.Though he helps others in their own mental health, Tatsumi is nowhere near professional and often does not know how to actually deal with certain symptoms. One he deals with frequently is delusions, and he may often say that he is possessed by some sort of demon. When Tatsumi claims himself to be possessed, it may mean he doesn't fully trust himself at that moment. Reality checks often do not work, though he is usually okay with them being given.Tatsumi's ability to "detect evil" is really just part of his anxiety and paranoia. The amount of evil detected in one's heart is just how much Tatsumi feels he can easily trust the person at hand. If he finds someone to be "evil", it means he is scared of them to some degree. If he finds one's heart to be pure, it means he feels safeー or at least not in any sort of immediate danger.Tatsumi is... very hypocritical. He offers advice to others while failing to follow said advice for himself. There are times where he will fail to take care of himself, such as not eating properly or getting enough rest. This usually only happens if he is under extreme stress. He doesn't want his own struggles to concern others, so he often doesn't talk about them.
Self-Harm
Tatsumi self-harms mainly through cutting his wrist and occasionally thighs. He tries to keep the fact he cuts a secret. Though he's aware of the damage it does to his body, and always advises others not to hurt themselves in any way, Tatsumi seems to refuse to stop. In his eyes, it is a form of purification and redemption.When Tatsumi hurts himself, he is trying to get any sort of "malevolent" blood out of his body. He is trying to rid any evil that lurks in his soul, such as corrupt spirits or demons that "possess" him. In short, his habit of self-harm is mostly thanks to his delusions rather than depressive reasons.Very rarely, he may also hurt himself if going through a meltdown. This is mostly through picking at his skin.There are cases of religion and self-harm having a correlation, though it is usually not through cutting.
Tatsumi makes mention of having a small blade collection, along with it being a "nostalgic" thing. Mayoi's hobby of collecting blades inspired Tatsumi to pick the hobby back up from his earlier high school days. He only has two box cutters from those days.He mentions the hobby being difficult to indulge in at the time, his parents monitoring him when it came to owning said blades. Now he is more free to explore the topic.Tatsumi has had limited access to technology and the internet his entire life, but it was especially limited and outright restricted in his high school days. He'd picked up the idea of cutting himself from things he'd seen online. Once found out, his parents restricted him completely from practically all technology just to keep him safe. This is also around the time he was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. His personality disorders are still not professionally diagnosed, but are being looked into by mental health professionals. Tatsumi is currently seeing a therapist.
Tatsumi has no current desire to die. He is aware suicide will send him to hell and doesn't wish to stray further from God. However, there are occasions where he wishes God would have just let him die the first time. He fears he may be bringing more harm than good to people in this second life of his, and wonders if the world truly would be better off without him in it. He tries not to linger too deeply on these depressing thoughts.